I have never been comfortable in front of the camera, I would much prefer to be the one taking the pictures of everyone else being awesome. But sometime you have to put on your big girl pants and get over it. It started 3 years ago with a tv interview on the local CTV morning show.......literally my hands were shaking , and my voice had that warble effect that those with with camera/ public speaking fears will recognize. Next came some interviews for the Etsy Made in Canada Market I had been planning.....bit by bit I got a little less shakey and my voice a little more sure of it's self ( though there is still a little warble if you listen closely. All a long I had been doing little videos of me working to share with ...well you guys.....on my Facebook and Insagram pages. And even though I don't speak in these, it was still mildly terrifying to put them out there into the internet. Because, I like so many others, when I look at videos and pics of myself all I ( used ) to see were the flaws.....the funny little twitches my lips make when I work, the occasional double chin appearance...etc. etc. But I made myself post them...kinda like a little bit of self therapy, as well as starting to take more selfies of myself...not because I wanted to document every outfit I wore or to get lots of attention ( though it doesn't hurt).... but to get comfortable in front of the camera, get comfortable with my body and my face ..with me. To stop seeing all the flaws and start seeing the good parts.
Which brings me to my last hurdle....talking on a video. I had been interviewed a couple of times on online and the videos are out there..... but they are in Spanish and I think people are a little more forgiving of mistakes that people make in their second language. It is also easier when someone is asking you questions and filling in the pauses.
BUT....yesterday I don't know what clicked...whether it was my horoscope saying it was a good day for communicating or watching the Suicide Squad the night before and still had some adrenaline running through me..... but I did it, I recorded a couple of videos of me talking directly to the camera ( for me this is the most fear inducing type of video) and hell I even posted them....... YAY Me!
Now I'm not telling you this because I want a pat on the back, but because I want to encourage you to get out of your comfort zone and do something even if it scares you.
Erin has been working with hot glass since 1999.